In Dave Chappelle’s Block Party (which I saw 3 times in the theatre and then watched everyday for a month straight on dvd) during The Fugees’ Reunion, Lauryn Hill asks the audience, “Where y’all been?” As if it was the audience who left and she hadn’t disappeared to have babies, go through intense Bible study and learn to play guitar.
I haven’t gone anywhere, but I have retreated into my mind where, as a Cancer, I tend to spend a lot of time.
Last week a signed a lease to stay in this apartment another year, once again telling myself it will be the last. I stay because my rent is insanely cheap (I pay $200 less than market value, because of a tax credit program I’m eligible for). The management company has gotten much better over the years, but the quality of residents has declined. When I first moved in, it was families and students of the nearby Atlanta University Center (Morehouse, Spelman, Clark Atlanta, Morris Brown). They are still here, but there is also an added element of thugs slowly moving in. Last night the men in the apartment next to mine had a full-on brawl in the bedroom with furniture overturned and everything. Screaming things like “You don’t know me! Bankhead, nigga! Westside, nigga! Recognize!!” Really. People say that in real life. I got out of bed and slept on the couch because, while they were fighting with their fists, you never know when someone will pull out a gun and sometimes bullets penetrate walls.
Also, 2 weeks ago there were several home invasions in one day in this apartment complex, including an apartment under mine. The crazy thing is I was home and didn’t hear a thing! Atlanta is getting crazier and crazier, and I know I say it all the time, but I am ready to move on.
The financial issue is holding me back as I don’t have money to move. So I got a lot to figure out.
On the work front, we are hanging in there. Retail is floundering right now and we are seeing less sales everyday. Our payroll hours are being cut and we are having to make do with less people and the people are having to make do with less hours. We are always waiting for the other shoe to drop and that can be stressful. On the plus side, I work with some amazing, smart, funny people and we spend the day laughing and keeping each other’s spirit up. Need to start working on the resume though. I keep putting it off because I don’t have the energy to make a lifetime of retail experience look appealing to another industry. And I have no idea what else I would like to do career wise.
Anyway, that’s what I have been up to. Read a couple books. Crocheted a couple scarves. Ate some stuff that’s not good for me. Watched a lot of tv. Talk to y’all soon.